The farewell I forget to say and never say

'Sometimes, the goodbyes we never spoken, return to us in dreams, waiting to be set free.'

I dreamed of you yesterday, after leaving the workplace for years. It been years passing by. In the dream, I am a barista, you're a customer. You visited my shop at night, and it is a raining night. 

I am standing in front of the counter, informed you that the coffee beans have finished and I unable to make your order. There are extra beans, but it inside the locker located at my next shop, but that shop has no electricity now. I thought you will leave, and I am quite reluctant inside my heart, to take your order.  Because how am I going to make the coffee at darker place? You are definitely throwing me a challenge.

You talk in impatient way. You said, "I helped you". The environment suddenly changed. I already standing inside the next shop, pouring the hot water into the cup. I am happy, feel like I completed a challenge. I heard you talking to others, saying "See, it not a difficult thing to do". I served you the coffee outside of the shop, this time, I saw your face. 

I am shocked and wake up. I remembered this face. She still looks the same, short light brown hair and fair skin. She is the one who interviewed me and enrolled me into the Company. Always talk in impatient way and like to frown when speaking. She is once my ex-boss. I leave the place too rush due to a lot of reason. I didn’t get to tell you face to face, 'Thank you for giving me the chance back then. Even though things ended rushed and a little sour, I still wish you all the best in your journey.



 





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